Time

Is it wrong to say that I miss you right now………………………?

Because you are a sky full of stars

Sympathy

walking down the sidewalk of a place i know best, i know the cracks and turns of this street.  step by step i remember the laugh cry shout and tease like the palm of my hand. a point in time you thought things couldn't go wrong, you laugh at how life plays with you, you give it the hand and it gives you its elbow. close your eyes and listen, pay attention to what its telling you its always been there the answer you always searched for.

Vampire Weekend

Great time, great show with these dolls

Everything is alright

and its not enough to say i need you. its not enough to say i want you. we can't say the words we desire for a love like yours is far gone.

Coming Back To Me

When I look back on good times I can't help but want to shut my eyes and feel myself go.

Post Concert Depression - Local Natives

Time Together Is Never Enough When You And I Are Alone I've Never Felt So At Home

World sick

The sky is pink and red with no clouds in sight but you. You tell me everything is alright and that you love me, the safeness in those words are as calming as a lullaby. To be held in your arms is quite nostalgic to a place I like to lose myself in. With the alarming of the clock i know you'll soon be gone and the "me" is gone with you, leaving an empty canvas untouched. I like how you run your fingers through my hair and caress a blushed cheek, the shy smile gives away too much for all this girl wants is a love so deep God would be jealous. With a few seconds left in eternity I know this moment will be gone, so i breathe in the fall air and breathe out hope for you are with me always. With a warm hello comes a sad goodbye as you walk towards a lonesome road you smile and tell me everything is okay.

Shred

Float on

You can never solve the equation on life, we go through bad experiences to see the good. Pictures like these brings back a place where everything seemed perfect, we were all in senior year anticipating our graduation date, hung out as much as we could and planned trips for the summer. Naive..... That's what we all were,growing into adults life of course had to throw us some obstacles and did we over come them? No we didn't. People change that's a fact for good or for worse it will always be a mystery how a person does from night to day, we can look back on those times and say "wow I remember that time!" But the person we were back then is not the one we are right now. I look in the mirror and my reflection is different my experiences have shifted something in me and has made me appreciate my friendship with each of you even more even if you guys haven't still. Different choices shape our path and we probably won't be in each other's lives for that long, something's are more important and that's ok, I've let this sink in and I'm okay with that fact. Andrea I've known you since 6th grade Spanish class and to be honest my best memory is when I never gave you back your dollar haha. Your honesty is admirable and I wish i could be honest as you, you were there in the the crucial years transitioning from middle school to high school, I don't know how I could have survived freshman year without you. Never stop carrying your class and sass Andre. Ashley you have defitnely grown the most, I always looked to you as a little sister because having those conversations were our friendship grew stronger I wanted to always give you best advice I could. Freshman year you were just full of energy and you were quite more mature than any of us and now you've become a sophisticated woman, I love how you always stuck to your beliefs and hope that's something no one takes away. Kayla and Freddy you guys have surprised me in ways I possibly couldn't have imagined,your relationship is an example of a testament of trust and independence. Kayla I remember how close we were back in 8th when we discovered the love for art. Full of talent and genuine love, I love how your realistic about things and with high school and time you've become such a close friend of mine I would have never believed it. Freddy Freddy Freddy you have also become a really close friend of mine and along with Kayla I know I can count on you guys for anything and I'd do the same. Freddy I remember the goofiness and silliness of your personality you were always the laid back guy who looked forward to having a fun time, you're like an older brother to me because although you used to and still make fun of me you never gave me a bad advice. Hanging out with you guys these last back to back weekends have been such a liberation to me you have no idea how much that has meant to me. Thank you. Thank you all you guys for putting a different piece in my heart to improve and welcome a different change in my life. Josh would be so happy to see where all our lives would takes us and how much you have saved me. 

The world at large

It will all fall, fall right into place.... Listening to Modest Mouse surprisingly has calmed me down so much, I had forgotten how much peace it brought to me and has settled down all calamity that's going around my mind. Funny how music can make you feel a certain way whether happiness, sadness, confusion or even anger haha.

You're All The Good Things

Tomorrow you'll be laughing like a child

There's no real tomorrow

In a perfect world we would all be sitting down and hanging out living forever talking about where our life is headed and we would all still be together. The night our brains let our minds expand and go further down imagination lane, questioning why we're here and who is waiting for us on the other side, coming up with our own dreams and beliefs we realized that we will never know these answers... Until we die. Death is natural and I don't fear it, it's something that is going to happen and will happen we just don't know when and how, to believe this we look at the knowledge that's fill with contradictions and in return we fill our minds of what parts comfort us and makes us feel happy. We all want an answer to the biggest question everyone asks themselves at some point in our journey. What would it feel like to have your life flash before your eyes? And where do you go? And do you actually see the people that are still alive? Like I said we might never know the answer till we ourselves are no more. 

Forever

"You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you. That's where I'll be waiting."

Peter Pan

You missed when time and life shook hands and said goodbye - Modest Mouse

Such a mess

The month of March is just flying me by, it feels like just yesterday I was ringing in the New Year and now we're heading into the month of April. Getting through days I'm piled with work and school and feel like I haven't actually had time for myself and indulge myself in life's treasures, the day is already in repeat; never changing. When I can write Its like I'm trying to scribble scrabble all my thoughts at once! I wish I could just pause the day and cease it haha.

Just a little something

I created this blog not knowing exactly what it would be based on, wether it was going to be about fashion; hence the blog name "Coco for Givenchy" or anything and related to my life. I gave it some thought and what makes a good blog isn't just words or phrases but more of how deep and connected those words mean to you. For me to openly and publicly write the many changes that I'm going through in my life, I am fully aware of how vulnerable I'm setting myself up but I'm more than happy to share those memories and give you something of a last resort of boredom kill. 

New beginnings...

2014 just barely started about 2 months ago and it seems like i'm already dreading this year, its like i've been trying to close back to back chapters in my life. The life of someone I knew the most was cut too short and I bear at the thought of keeping all the things I wish I could have said forever in my heart. The things you wish that happened, the things you wish that didn't happen, the things you wish you would have said and the things you wished you wouldn't have said. Stop time and rewind a few months ago where you see a boy and a girl completely in love, airing in happiness and soaking in love, these things consume you and make you blind of all the realizations in life and like a dream that moment is gone. No matter how much you tried to protect me from the demons that inhabit my mind, confusion and sadness were two vital roles that took over, to help me cope with a sudden separation and heartbreak I did things I shouldn't have done and the "me" you once knew was no more. For a moment it's like my life was a complete limbo and my vision was clouded, "who am I?" "what am I doing?" "where are you?" I kept these questions on repeat and play like a tape recorder for all the days I have been alive and will be alive. Haunting is your own reflection and not knowing who that person is, the things you thought you wanted are the things that ended up destroying you. We latched on our promise that someday our "one day" would come, the promise I had made to you and the one you accepted unwillingly crept up like a cramp. The warmth of your hugs and the sweetness of your kisses lingered on me that love was on sight and that our day was going to happen.......... now all I have is our memories and that genuine smile you engraved in my mind. Life hits you with hard blows and you can only think its for the better, at least thats what I must believe in.. You now know the love and happiness that the ones that are left here can't comprehend. Like the poem from E.E Cummings "I carry your  heart (i carry it in my heart)" I will keep my promise.